Now I'm more free to write and to get back on my daily life. Take care all of you.
I arrived, started gearing up for a big decision in my life, working towards that, something that will take months and it will require much concentration, strength and study to achieve it.
Unfortunately, you want to focus just on your work and rely on your calm and supportive personal life. When you don't have it, you at least focus on just calm life and forget everything else. However, problems have a way to find you, to haunt you down, you can't escape them. Karma is a bitch. When it gets you, it gets you at the fucking worse time of your life.
I thought about leaving this blog with the picture of London, since I was spending these months at home, studying with nothing to tell. I don't think I can.
I created this blog at specially difficult moment of my life, as you may remember. Again, I'm facing a new challenge. There's differences now, from then. Then I didn't have any friends who I could tell what was going on my life, now is different. But one thing is the same, I must face the problems alone and figure out my life for myself. There is just no other way.
It's been a long time since I felt sentimental. Ironically, it happens when I wanted to box as much emotions as possible to focus on my work and studies. What can I do? Fixing our lives can be as much hard as fixing your soul. It requires a lonely and long work. There will be scars that will persist forever, parts of your soul that will never know the true meaning of the word happiness.
I don't know what life reserves for me. I am privileged to have seen what I have in this short and ephemerous life. Only God knows, what lays ahead for me. For now, I can only think and decide what to do, despite knowing that either way things won't be easy and that ultimately, my work will be compromised. There's no turning back however. I will have a crappy night. A miserable night. Maybe my soul will be washed, but I hope tomorrow will be a new day. Even if the problems won't go away, even if they get worse, I'll still be here, I hope, fighting another day, supported by my favorite poetry line ever: And death shall be no more, death thou shalt die.
The best thing about Terminator Salvation was again the cute cyborg. Although I enjoy in general Christian Bale roles, he doesn't quite pulls this one off. I'm not a Terminator fan, but the movie does poorly in terms of getting a good story. Sure it has nice special effects, but other than that... (only Sam Worthington).
Jack McFarland: Karen, nobody chooses to be homeless. It's because they did something bad.
Work overload, work overload and work overload.
This week, besides work I can only tell about my dinner with my friend the intern and his boyfriend. It was really nice, they're a great couple. And they managed to distract me from the terrible work I was having.
Fuckability scale. I must explore this new tool.
Oh, and by the way. I need to correct an information. His boyfriend is actually quite fit and he found it really amusing my overweight guess. It wasn't a nice moment for me, but he assured me he's not upset, and I believe him obviously.
After some homework, I managed to discover the nurse Facebook. I debated if I should add him or not. Ultimately, I had no choice but to add him. I'm just human.
But well, these really bad experiences are also important I guess. Almost therapeutical, I would say.